Today I recieved the following email from my almamata (sp?), Sarah Lawrence College:

Dear SLC alum,

Career Counseling has received a full-time job opportunity to work with SLC alum and author, Dr. Amanda Foreman. Please see below for a full job listing and directions on how to apply.

best,
Career Counseling

Full-time assistant position with SLC Alum, Dr. Amanda Foreman

International best-selling and prize-winning author with one book a major feature film and several projects in the works is seeking new assistant. Responsibilities include: general accounting, filing taxes, research, liaising with publishers, agents and film producers, managing three residences and a large staff and managing social and work diaries for a large family. Applicant would be asked to travel with employer on research-based trips as well as occasional other excursions. Applicant must be able to drive, willing to travel, comfortable meeting people from all walks of life and be prepared for anything to come out of left field. Previous assistant staying for four years and was much loved by all. This is a full-time position. Benefits include 3 weeks paid vacation and health insurance. Starting salary $40k+. Position based in NYC.

To apply please email a resume and cover letter to ________

So from the beginning of this email I thought, "well, I'd love to work as a published author's assistant! This could be great!" and then I see "accounting, filing taxes," and I think "yeah ok that's not happening!" and how quickly the rest of the email became "not for me". Then I started thinking how often people say "not for me" to things. When they're shopping and they get approached by a sales person thats maybe a little too pushy, or when they're on a date that just goes on and on but really goes nowhere, or when you're too scared to push yourself to really do something you've never done before. I think I've fallen into all of those things, but most recently it's been that last part. I look at jobs and sometimes its good that I can say "not for me". But I really wish I could be this chique published author's assitant.

I'm lost now.